Tuesday, December 30, 2008 @ 10:13 PM


(Taken from Weijie's blog)








I have bad news. I don't think I will be going to celebrate NYE with them tomorrow because I am suffering from severe stomach ache. It's been there for hours already and I can barely walk straight. It's not due to period, I don't know what is it. I hope I'll be okay by tomorrow(crosses fongers and toes). I'm going to sleep in a little bit. I am all drained out and I don't know why. I am way too lazy to talk about day. And Jingyee, if you read this, he'll be fine. Do not worry!(heartz) Oh yes, the boys lost today.


eofn, biatches.

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Monday, December 29, 2008 @ 10:15 PM


I think my smile's too wide. weird.
My eyes look weird in the peekcha below.









I had last minute plans with Jingyee. We headed to Cineleisure to dine at the HongKong cafe, the food is good. I think it's much better than Kim Gary. After that, Jing and I walked to Fareast so that I could take a bus home and she could take a cab to look for Mingyang. On the way there, I bumped into Jade. Hello Jade(if you happen to read this) Yeah, so dinner was good. Guess that's about it.
much love



@ 4:59 PM




@ 3:22 PM



Thai green curry is finger-licking good. Kay, never mind about that. Anywayz, my plans for today were ruined because of some things but it's okay, another time. (smilez) Two more days to NYE, so I guess it's gonna be Clarke Quay? Oh whatever, I can't wait.

I wonder what's Rina and Sheila doing, I suppose they're having training right now. Stupid netball, end training so early. Screw it(excuse me for my inappropriate language, Jocie). I guess I'm gonna weed the garden now. What a day!

Kay, I'm gonna take a walk down memory lane. I miss my primary school. You know, I have changed alot. The change I see in me is radical. I used to be in dance last time, well, I could say I started dancing at the age of 6. And like, when I was in primary school, I hated to sweat, I hated the sun, I was god-damn afraid of balls. I was clearly not a bimbo, I just sucked at sports(but I ran alot). I would cry at the tiniest bit of things. For example, in primary 4, George Lim and Marven Sim was kicking a bottle around in class. I was cleaning the whiteboard and I got whacked on the head by the freaking bottle and I bawled for hours over it. What a pussy, I know! If it's now, I bet I'll go over and scream at them. Somehow, I like the way I am now but at the same time, I do not. I don't know how I should explain myself because I am not being myself right now. It's kinda amazing that I'm in Netball now. And excuse me Weijie, I do not remember calling you a bitch in Primary 1 because I only knew what it meant when I was primary 5. So stop harping on it!


I wish I could be someone better.


eofn, biatches.

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Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 7:44 PM


Tuition was bad because I was very distracted. I've been thinking of lots of things and even during tuition my mind was still occupied with it. This is extremely vexing! My mother may not be going to work tomorrow because she has gastrics and it looks pretty bad. I pray she'll be fine tomorrow so that she'll be able to go to work because I seriously do not want her at home. At least, I can have my freedom until she's back from work. Oh and I'm going for a movie with my 2 sisters tomorrow, we should be catching Bedtime stories. I have not watched Twilight in the theatres yet! I ought to do so soon.

Before going for tuition, my dad brought my sisters and I to Queensway to get our school bags. Apparently, I got what I wanted and my sisters did not. Oh kay, I guess that's about it. Eofn!

Love,
me

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Saturday, December 27, 2008 @ 2:00 PM


Seriously, weeding the garden sucks. I was forced to wake up by my mother at 11 plus to weed the freaking garden. I was suppose to wake up at 10 but I ignored the freaking alarm from my phone. And what's worse is that I couldn't go shopping with my mother, she left me at home and brought my sisters. Okay, I think that Miley Cyrus is damn ugly. I am watching the music video of 7 things on MTV. She looks terrible! I was watching Behind the Scenes of Twilight on E! just now. I can't wait for New Moon to come, cannot wait.

New Year's Eve this Wednesday. Okay, what are we doing? Marina or Sentosa huh? Hopefully, we won't be going to somewhere packed with people. School reopen's this Friday, I don't know why but somehow I cannot wait. I haven't bought a new school bag yet. Holidays are boring. My posts are getting wordy again, I hate it. I haven't been taking peekchas lately. Alright, eofn.

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Friday, December 26, 2008 @ 10:40 PM










Peekchas taken @ Vivo.


@ 10:06 PM


Tuition was effing boring. They lost the match today but it's okay, at least they tried their best right! I'm going shopping with my mother tomorrow. I have not showered yet, I am way too lazy to do so but I will okay. The new school is super dirty and it's like walking out of a rubbish dump, coming out all black. Oh well, hopefully it will be cleaner next year.

I have been thinking alot, ever since last night, ever since we had that conversation. If I have the chance, I would run away and never look back. In fact, I have the chance but I am not willing to take it. Yet. I know you guys care for me alot and I really appreciate it but the pressure is really making it so hard to breathe. Frankly speaking, I deleted him unwillingly and I have been telling myself that this is the first step. First step in being genuinly happy, first step in breathing in air I have never breathed in before etc. Believe me, I will try my best. Luv you shitheads so much and thank you!

I belong to me.
I don't belong to you.
My heart is my possession.
I'll be my own reflection.


Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 11:41 PM


I am gonna hold you for the last time, I am gonna cry but I try not to let it show. This is the hardest way to say goodbye because as you walk away, I feel so alone. I don't understand why you had to leave and I am not part of your plans. We both agreed but now I regret, there are so many things I wanna say. But now I've let you go, I'm holding back the tears. I'm here all alone, forgetting all the months and now there's nothing I can do to bring you back to me. So we live out different lives. It's so hard because there's no more you and I. We're worlds apart. Sometimes it's hard to get to see the light. Sometimes I think about the way it could have been. I see you everytime I close my eyes. I try to shut you out but instead I let you in. I can't pretend I wanted to end for you and me. What I'd give for one more day just to say the things I need to say. If only time was running away as you walked away, I couldn't explain to you and I can't pretend I wanted this to end for you and me.

... and there's nothing I can do to bring you back to me.


@ 10:53 PM




Somehow, I like this peekcha.


@ 10:12 PM



I have started my Chinese New Year shopping already because I am afraid I won't have time to buy it next year. My mom brought my sisters and I to Vivocity today. I bought a golden tube dress and a necklace from Forever 21. Initially, I wanted to get this black dress but it looks too formal. It looks pretty. And then we had dinner at Kim Gary. I bought a book at a secondhand bookstore also. Oh yeah, I bought a skirt and a top from Zara. My mom didn't want to get me the shoes that I want from River Island because she thinks it's too casual for CNY(I didn't even say I wanna wear it on CNY). Tuition is on tomorrow. I'll be going to school to watch someone's match tomorrow before going for tuition. Peekchas from the wedding dinner will be up on a later date because I can't find the wire to connect the camera to the desktop. That's all.
Love,
Laura

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Wednesday, December 24, 2008 @ 11:54 PM


Merry Christmas!!! A few more minutes to X'mas, I can't believe I came online. I am super exhausted, I had a long day. The bbq was alright and I hope everyone did enjoy the food. The rest went to catch a movie and I wasn't allowed to go with them because I am still grounded. And besides, I am way too tired and I seriously don't have the energy to go out. I wish everyone a happy year ahead. Oh yes, Jingyee is beside me right now. We were prank calling people and it was super hilarious. My left ankle is hurting to the maximum.Why? Because I stupidly slipped and fell when I went to get my flip flops. I totally embarrassed myself infront of my friends. Alright, good night world.

Do I mean a thing? At all?

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@ 2:45 PM


I just got up from bed. No wait, actually I woke up much earlier than that but I went back to bed. I followed my mother to the wet market to get the stuff for the bbq and it's also the first time going to the wet market. Unfortunately, it was raining so the wet market was extremely wet and smelly. It's super gross but the people working there were really friendly and funny. I was super tired. And then I came back and I had to prepare the bbq stuff, my eyelids were so heavy and I just wanted to sleep(but I couldn't cus my mother wants me to do everything myself). She left after preparing the chili for the stingray and sotong and I went to sleep and left the rest for the maid to finish. Toby stinks, he really needs a shower! It has been raining the whole night and right now, the sky still looks grey. I pray that it doesn't rain later on. Okay, time is passing really slowly and I am starving but I am saving my stomach for the bbq. RINA CHUA WAS SUPPOSE TO COME OVER AND HELP ME BUT SHE'S STILL ASLEEP! See you people later.

Love,
Laura


@ 2:39 AM



I think you know what I'm getting at. I find it so upsetting that the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget. And even though I'm angry I can still say, I know my heart will break the day when you peel out and drive away. I can't believe this happened. No, I don't hate you, don't want to fight you. Know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you because you took this too far. What happened to us? I heard that it's me we should blame. Why didn't you stop me from turning out this way? Know that I don't hate you and know that I don't want to fight you. Know that I'll always love you but right now I just don't...


@ 12:40 AM


I just got back from the wedding dinner not long ago. I am so freaking full and I am tired because I woke up bright and early today to meet Weijie. We headed to Peninsular first to collect my school skirt and then we took a bus down to Vivocity. I bought my stuff and then I went back home. Bbq tomorrow, 6pm okayz! Merry X'mas Eve. Peekchas from the wedding will be up tomorrow, I guess? Oh yes, this pair of electric blue leather shoes caught my eyes today when I was at River Island. I am so gonna get it! Super cute.


Monday, December 22, 2008 @ 11:14 PM




































I miss you :(


@ 4:31 PM


I don't care that you hurt me too many times, I don't care that you made me cry, I don't care if this poem rhymes or if this poem sucks, I don't care. I don't care. Whether you like it or not, I don't care, If i was the one you happened to just 'forgot'.

Okay, I am damn bored.
I have not weed the garden yet.
shit....


@ 3:41 PM



I just had my lunch and I am still tired. The aftermath of sleeping late everyday. I have a dental appointment later and guess what I am gonna do before that? I am going to weed the garden. I have to clear it if I'm going to have the bbq.

I have plans with Amanda and Weijie tomorrow. Since there's no training, I will be going to Peninsular to collect my skirt and I'm also going to Vivocity to get some stuff (eyebrows go up and down). Wait, is training still on or what? Tomorrow's a busy day, I still have to attend my aunt's wedding dinner at night. Hopefully, there will be lots of peekchas for me to put up tomorrow. lovex


tell me why you're so hard to forget.

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Sunday, December 21, 2008 @ 10:10 PM


I kickstart my day with a sumptious lunch. I woke up during lunch time, I was so restless the whole day. I am feeling so exhausted already due to all the late night phonecalls and chatting online. My family and I went to old airport road for dinner after tuition, the food there is damn goood. We should go there sometime to eat okay!! X'mas X'mas X'mas...


@ 12:31 AM


I am so not in the mood to blog about today, maybe I will do it tomorrow. I don't know how to describe how I feel right now, I really don't know. Night world.

I miss you terribly.
Why did I do that to you?


Friday, December 19, 2008 @ 10:35 PM




I miss Nanyang Primary School. I wish I studied for PSLE, I wish I was posted to a better school. I wish, I wish...


@ 10:07 PM



Tuition was boring, I had a huge struggle trying to rack my brains because my brain was dead for one hour and thirty minutes. Vivocity tomorrow but before that I have some errands to run for myself. I need to get ready for school already and I'm starting tomorrow. My left eyelid has a freaking lump thingy inside and it hurts. I hope it won't swell tomorrow, I don't wanna look horrible. And I just found out my mother bought insurance for the dog, how kutez right! Claire is posted to Nanyang Girl's High, freaakkk. They are using secondary 2 books and their pe shorts is fbt material. And the freaking uniform is made from Estar, some expensive brand. (sighs) I feel so lousy. gotta go! lovez

-me

get your effing face out of my sight.

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@ 3:37 PM


I just woke up and I am so proud that I managed to sleep early last night, around 2 plus 3? It's late but I usually sleep around 4 plus everyday. School's starting, I hope this habit goes away. I have tuition later on. What a drag...


Thursday, December 18, 2008 @ 10:45 PM


The match today was cancelled and I don't know why. Coach didn't turn up but training was still fun! After training, I waited in school for Rina and Sheila's vollyball training to end so that we can go for lunch together. It was a long wait but it was worth it, I guess? In the end, Rina and I headed to Thomson Plaza while Sheila and Angeline went home because they were't in the mood to go out and eat. Rina and I had Thai cuisine, it was yummy and very fulling! I went to Rina's house after that because she was coming to my house and she wanted to go home and bathe first. The rest met us at amk hub because they were coming over to my place for dinner and mahjong session! And I am currently sitting next to Rina because they are all playing mahjong. And my freaking mother just freaking hell embarrassed me in front of my friends. Bloody hell! Never mind, I love it when my mom scolds me in front of my friends..... Nonsense.. lovex


Wednesday, December 17, 2008 @ 7:19 PM


You don't have to tell me that I'm cute because I know it myself. (wOOt)


@ 4:09 PM


Seriously, I don't have issues with people copying me because it's a form of flattery, isn't it? I have decided to give up my previous blogskin for something more plain. I really like my old blogskin though, I love flowers alot. Oh yes, one more thing. PLEASE STOP GRABBING WHATEVER PEEKCHAS I HAVE ON MY BLOG AND PUT ON YOUR BLOG!!! AND I MEAN EVERY SINGLE PEEKCHAS ON MY BLOG! Go get your own peekchas please.

I am so cool. I missed you so much I murdered you in the middle of the night and stole your heart so you could be with me all the time. I'm a psychopath and you drove me crazy.

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@ 3:40 PM




Jasper Hale (Jackson Rathbone)
&
Alice Cullen (Ashley Greene)

much lovex


@ 2:59 PM


I barely got out of bed and I am already online. I fell asleep on the girls and Waikiong while chatting on the phone with them last night, I was darn tired for some reasons. I don't feel like going for tuition so I feigned sick. I hope my sisters don't come to my blog and read this part of my blog. I am gonna rot my day away, training is on tomorrow. There maybe a match, am I looking forward to it or what? Oh well...

Love,
Laura


Tuesday, December 16, 2008 @ 5:05 PM


I just finished my Paris Hilton's New BFF and I pretty much enjoyed it although it's so materialistic. All the contestants are so fake but it was so enjoyable watching them stabbing knives into each other's back. I'm not psychotic but it's amazing to see people doing all these just to be best friends with Paris Hilton. Yeah duh, there are so many advantages if you're her best friend. Shelly was the most innocent and purest girl I've ever seen(she's one of the contestant) but unfortunately, Paris is too blind to see that she is the best candidate to be her best friend and had her eliminated. Okay, this is a wrap to Paris Hilton New BFF! hahahaha, this is so dumb.


@ 1:51 PM


You must be wondering why I'm blogging when I should be in M'sia. I couldn't wake up and I had a huge tiff with my mom because I didn't want to go, I never did. She was the one forcing me to go. And she still had the nerve to say I've not been spending time with my family when I always go out with them whenever I can. But today, I was really tired... It seriously annoys me how unreasonable my mother is sometimes. I'll be home alone for the whole entire day. My mom ordered books from USA without telling me and I have run out of books. I want to read, maybe I should get a new book for myself as a X'mas present. In a few weeks time, it'll be year 2009. Time really flies! One year gone in a flash, how amazing. Okay, time to go!

Love,
Laura

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@ 12:48 AM


My laptop is alive and kicking already. I am happy, unlimited time on the Internet. The bloody desktop has the bloody time limit. (w00t)


Monday, December 15, 2008 @ 10:12 PM



My day was.. purrfect! And so, I met Sheila and her cousin, Dion, in the train and we went to Cineleisure to watch The Day the Earth stood still. I thought it was great, Keanu Reeves is so charming. After the movie, we went to Amk hub to meet Rina and the boys for dinner. I am going to Malaysia tomorrow, I am not looking forward to it at all. I have to skip training again!


-me



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Sunday, December 14, 2008 @ 10:37 PM



What I am going to say here is what I rightfully should have done a long time back but amazingly and stupidly, I did not. You may think I am letting the whole entire world see this but I am not. Okay maybe I am but that's not the whole main point. I just feel that I cannot communicate with you on MSN and I feel much better telling you here. To the audience who are reading this, you won't get what I'm saying so too bad. (smiles) So here I go..

You are a jerk, a irresponsible jerk. Once you're done, you just clean up your freaking ass and walk away. What do I look like? A ragdoll? I am a freaking human with a heart which contains a chunkful of feelings in it. Wait a minute, or are you eyes way way too small for you to see? If you even regard me as a friend, why did you do it? Okay, maybe I am partly at fault also but still.. I need my dignity, hello!!! I don't need you to fill me with you fucking lies anymore okay. Stop acting like you even care when you obviously don't. I'd rather die then go through this shit you're currently putting me through. Seriously, I am through with you. You, your lies, your sympathy.... You are a mistake I swear I won't ever make again. I won't ever stoop myself to your level, I am not a whore(get this into your head). Don't worry, you can trust me, I won't breathe a word. I know you well enough to know that you won't even flinch after reading this. You will always be you. You always pretend nothing happened when in actual fact, something did happened. That's so typical you, I must say. I wish you all the best in screwing people's life up and making them feel so lowly of themselves after your nonsense. Is it fair you played me for a fool? Is it fair you used me, that's the truth? You're lying all the time and now I am mad. You drove me to the vodka shots and knocked them back. I bet you never thought I would be a basket case. I'm going crazy because you hooked on someome and that someone isn't me. I bet you never thought I was a psycho bitch like the kind of girl that's gonna smash your headlights. No, that someone isn't me. Does she do what I don't? Is she beautiful or will she go where I will go? I bet you will hate me after reading this. WHO CARES!!!! I hope we're still friends though. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Kay, I am done. Ciao (Look, I'm smiling while typing all this out) LOL!!! I told you, you will love this post. I had enough of you, YOU'RE SO OUT OF MY LEAGUE!


@ 10:08 PM


I woke up and then went for tuition. My day was boring. Much lovex

-me

So here I go, I'm gone, I'm going. I'm so over you, and I dont care And I won't go back 'Cause I know if I do, I wont make it .

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Saturday, December 13, 2008 @ 11:41 PM


I feel sick. Your actions irk me. I hate you.


@ 10:25 PM



I just got back from Chomp Chomp. I met Sheila, Lowell and Dion at amk hub and then Zuokuan, Kokping, Hungyih and Baiyong came after that. We took a bus down to Chomp Chomp to meet Rina. It was freaking crowded and it was hard to get seats for everyone, Zuokuan left after awhile(might as well don't come right, lol). I am so full! My fever is much better and I have stomach cramps. lovex

-me


All you did was pretend it never happened.
And here I am,
nursing a broken heart.

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Friday, December 12, 2008 @ 11:57 PM


Oh my mistake about that Levis jeans. WRONG INFO FROM RINA CHUA!


@ 10:10 PM


I am so lazy to elaborate about my day because it was so boring. I'm going to sell all my Levis Jeans to Levis to get money for X'mas presents tomorrow. I am currently chatting with Baiyong because all the girls are not online, no one to chat with me(tear). Much lovex

-me

We lay on the bed and stared into each other eyes.
And it was gone in a flash..


Thursday, December 11, 2008 @ 10:04 PM


When you loved the one who was killing you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give your beloved, how would not give it? If it was someone you truly loved?


@ 7:41 PM




I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable



@ 7:23 PM




















I didn't go training today because I am still sick but I'll prolly go training tomorrow. There's training like everyday for this week. Oh well, I have tuition tomorrow and a doctor's appointment. Frrrreaaakk. Peekchas above are from Sheila's bbq. Lovex

-me

I don't know how I feel.
I can't find the truth.

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I am a girl and i am writing this as long as i could to make it look nice i love food and charms and trinklets and diamonds and pushing daisies and nice boys i love prada and louie and i listen to music like we the kings and the ting tings and the cab i do not like sweaty mornings and stalin and my hair being neat i love drawing flowers and my garden of eden so do you get my drift of making this part as long as possible?

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