Friday, November 30, 2007 @ 10:02 PM

Thursday, November 29, 2007 @ 6:16 PM

Well, like they all say. The truth is a stranger. I've made the final decision. Yes, I chose Lionel and gave up Nicholas. Before that, I made a huge blunder. Somethings are hard to let go of and forgotten, Nicholas. All you need is time. Everyone's worried about you, including me. Behind every goodbye, there's a reason why. Don't look back and look for a new direction. Listen to my blog song and you'll get it. & as for Lionel, I'm just awaiting for his return from the bloody boy's home. I miss him so god damn badly D: you're still a part of everything I do.

I slept until like 0130pm and then woke up and eat, headed back to my room. Plopped myself on the bed and sleep till now. Haha, I don't know why I feel so restless without you. Still in memory of you, marks everything I do. Although you're gone, I still feel you're here with me. Joey maybe staying overnight today. I need some company and a game of tarots card to forsee my future and the choices I make. Adios.

& you'll never know the reason why.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007 @ 12:50 AM

Hi Hi Hi Hi :D

I've got a new number, 83110450. Anyway, I went to the clinic with my mom and sister for a flu jab just now. Okay, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would be. Hazel cried & my mom screamed. It was damn humiliating ! Claire didn't get the jab cus she's sick. So yar. Her turn will come real soon :D Texting Nich-o-las right now. He's at KBOX. Come to think about it, it's been quite some time ever since I last went to KBOX. I shall gather The Usuals and hit KBOX soon. Woooopeeeee ! I can't wait to go high and scream into the microphones and irritate Kok Ping and Hong Han. mwahahahahaha. Happy Birthday, Audrey Cheong Weilin ! Sorry that I couldn't make it to your birthday party. I'm grounded, you see. Oh well, that's all. Adioooos.

I'll always have you.\

Tuesday, November 27, 2007 @ 5:00 PM

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror,
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

I'm sitting here and remiscing. Sheeesh, for the past few days or should I say weeks ? I've really enjoyed myself. I don't know why but I'm gonna pen a essay here, right now. It's seems so nostalgic. I mean, hey, people do sit down and ponder about their past and mistakes right ? Okay, not to say, memories. Well, I have truck loads of them. Be it memories, mistakes etc. It's all so memorable. I'm in a melancholy mood right now. Boys come and go and friends are forever, am I right ? I don't see why I should let guys affect me right now. I mean, how old am I ? Fourteen. I should treasure my adolescenes and not let anything affect me in any way. Omg, I think I sound so mature now. haha. Whatever. I can't waste time so give me the moment. I am gonna go somewhere tomorrow to see someone. I don't know if I should. Because I know, if I go, everything will change. So I'll see ...

I'm sorry if I have to move on and leave you behind.

Monday, November 26, 2007 @ 11:47 PM

I'm in such a difficult position right now that I can actually just tear myself apart. Gosh, I'm starting to hate love. That stupid magical thing which makes you go gaga over someone. Fuck, I don't have the mood blog right now. adios.

Sunday, November 25, 2007 @ 10:24 PM

Salutations ya'll.

Came home around 9 from Red Bar. The gig was cool but I left cus I promised my mom I'll be home early. Cheryl Tan was there :D Guess what I got from her the moment I entered the bar ? A real hard whack on my ass. haha. Anyway, before that, I was at Balestier with Sera and Yusheng before meeting Hung and band at Bugis. Why were we there ? To meet Shanice. Shanice live in the same condo as Veron so I visited her. Yeeeaaaah. Netball camp's tomorrow but I ain't going :O I'm meeting Nich-o-las tomorrow, I suppose. That bloooody shiiiiaaaat guy. ( oops, I hope he doesn't sees this. haha ) I'm kidding, Nich :D Oh yeah, Sera and I bought grey contact lenses today. C-O-O-L-I-O I'm in the cycling mode now. Oh gosh, I'm addicted.

ps: my ass still hurts due to the long period of time on the bicycle seat D:

4 December.\
I don't know how to face you when you come out.

@ 1:06 AM

Seraphina Poh has put on weight.

Hello mortals. Work's a draaaaaaag. So many mishap happened on my first day :O Expected.

1. I was having lychee pearl milk tea and then I was trying to shooot the pearl out of the straw and unfortunately, it flew to the customer's plate. Gosh, it was so humiliating please.

2. I burnt my hand while getting hot water for my grandmaaaa.

3. I got stalked by this freak.

4. Seraphina almost lodged a complain on me to the manager. haha. assss.

5. Fucking Seraphina Poh used the lighter to burn my hair. It stinks, I swear.

Something astonishing just happened, Paul Cheng talked to me online. My ex best guy friend. That suckeeeerrrr. I thought he forgotten about me, well, he claims that he misses me. I went cycling with Joey and Seraphina today. From my place to Sera's house. Through the express way. haha. It's pretty dangerous but fun. I shall do that more often :D I'm going for the gig at Red Bar tomorrow, can't wait. Bye.

Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 10:03 PM

Don't you realise, realise, realise ? I just wanna scream and lose control.

Ni Hao. Omg, I just speaked mandarin. Speaked, technically. Okay whatever. Nich-o-las and a-lex came over to my place today. Met them at Sembawang Hills bus stop right after netbaaalllll. Had praaataaaa then home. They came, messed up my room. haha, fuuureeeeaks. I'm gonna work tomorrow at my uncle's restaurant. First day at work, gee, I'm so excited. How do people dress when they go to work ? I guess I'll just wear my black skinnies, sneakers and a teeeee :D

To my two dearest friends whom I so wanna aplogize,

Look, I'm sorry okay. I didn't mean to explode last night. Have you ever spared a thought of how I would have felt ? I've always given in to you guys, never have I once chided your all that badly right ? I was just so fed up, you know. People do have their limits. And to S, I've never quarrelled with you before & I hope you'll forgive me for my bluntness last night. And to Y, although we always argue, you know I love you all the same. Oh well, I've said my piece. I hope you guys are willing to you know, talk to me. yeah. And it's not boyfriend over friend, S. (we're not together.) You guys are all MIA-ing ever since I came back from Cameron Highlands. One by one and I only have him to talk to. I'm sorry & I love you guys. Alot.

Pictures of you.

Thursday, November 22, 2007 @ 12:25 AM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007 @ 8:51 PM

@ 8:49 PM

NICHOLAS WAS NEXT TO ME :D

Saturday, November 17, 2007 @ 12:31 AM

I'm feeling so drowsy now. I just took my cough medicine. Oh well, I watched Bratz today with Jingyee, Nicholas & Alex. I liked it alot but the rest didn't. haha. Nicholas and Alex ate at Food Republic and I didn't because I'm on a diet (I won't be able to make it, haha.) Went home after that, Nicholas met his friend and they came to my place to chill, at the play ground. Oh yeah, before meeting Nicholas, met Weijie at Sembawang Hills for lunch :D I'm going off to Cameron Highlands tomorrow :/ shiaaat, I so don't wanna go okay. Bye.

17 days more to go.

Friday, November 16, 2007 @ 1:31 AM

@ 12:24 AM

@ 12:12 AM

Dear Diary,

I'm on the phone with Joey & Yusheng right now. We're talking about Food Republic at Vivocity :D Oh well, I'm finally able to go out tomorrow and I'm gonna meet Nicholas Lim WenXiang. Joey's coming along with me. We're planning to meet Weijie for breakfast first since she suggested that. I was talking to Casper just now on MSN and I am planning to meet them on 4 December when Lionel comes out and then we'll go pick him up together.

I was at amk hub just now. I was suppose to get a new hair style but I ended up trimming my hair because I was afraid I'll look bad. So yeah. I met Joey, Seraphina, Yusheng and Lynmay. My phone got confiscated so I had a really hard time looking for them and they were looking for me too. haha. I've got a blister now as I was wearing pumps without plasters ): Oh well, that's about it. toodles. oh yeah, the above picture appears to be the smoking machine.

18 more days to go.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @ 10:34 PM

Hello Bloggie.

It's been quite some time since I've used the computer. Why ? I was being locked up in my aunt's house. Pure torture. I have to wake up at 7 and sleep at 9. I have to help out with housework and I have to read books and nothing else. It's cruel. haha. I'm finally home :D There's not netball training tomorrow. Damn it, I was waiting for it and unfortunately, there won't be any training tomorrow. Anyway, I've a date with Joey on Friday. We are deciding if we should catch a movie or not. Seraphina Poh's coming back tonight. I miss her. I miss her fats. haha.

He's been gone for 2 days. 19 more days to go.
and I told myself I won't miss you.

Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 11:16 PM

Hi There.

Okay, I feel so miserable right now. Ah, physically and emotionally. Can someone just knock me out so that I'll go to sleep ? I'd me just be fine, pretending I'm not. ( Those were from a song. ) Oh wel, good night.

Friday, November 09, 2007 @ 8:55 PM

It's so vexing to stay home and do nothing when your friends are in town having fun.
I'm going through this awful torment. Mom doesn't allow me to leave the house due to my stupid sore throat and fever.

You know, I think I should like stop wearing tank tops and skinnies already. I neeed more tops. Okay alright, I feel sticky now. I'm gonna shower. toodles.

@ 6:12 PM

Hello, I'm back from the chalet. I'm down with a really bad sore throat and fever. I swear it sucks. I can't speak at all. I'll just go straight to the point about the chalet.

Wednesday :
Joey stayed overnight and we were suppose to woke up at like 8 but we overslept because we both slept pretty late. Jing's dad gave us a lift to Joey's house because she wanted to change ger bag and she forgotten to bring her solution for her contact lenses. So yeah, we cabbed down to Meng Da's house. We waited for Meng Da and Hong Han to wake up, it was so bloody hell long so we decided to go to mac for lunch while waiting for them. Kok Ping was already awake so he was playing some dumb computer game. Meng Da's parents drove us to Downtown east after that. Checked in, and I started nagging. hahaha, I told the guys not to mess up the room. Joey and I went for a swim while the others went to the arcade. We swam for a little while and then showered and looked for the rest at the arcade. Joey, Yusheng, Sera and I was hungry so we went to Sakae Sushi. I had a sushi and ran out to join the rest at the arcade. I saw Jeslin, said Hi to each other. Jing and I competed with Jeslin and her friend with the shooting game thingy. We won all rounds :DDD Nice game. Adrian came after that. I had a few rounds of air hockey with Kok Ping. Fun fun fun fun. After awhile, all headed back to the room to catch the 7pm show. haha. The guys played cards while the girls watched. Joey and the guys had a pillow fight, it was so funny. I laughed till my sides hurt. Man, poor Joey really suffered under Kok Ping's hands. haha. We watched tv till 11 as the girls wanted to catch the PCD show. After that, went outside to chill. Lionel came with his three friends, he helped us bought vodka. I was so so so drunk, I tell you. I couldn't even walk straight. My face was so freaking red and my vision was blurred. haha, omg, I'm weak. ( Lionel, I admitted I'm weak. ) Slacked till 6 plus, Lionel left with his friends. The four girls lied on the bed and slept. Adrain's friends came. They were effing inconsiderate and irritatiing please. Everyone was trying to sleep and the made so much noise in the room, trying to wake everyone up. I was so so pissed.

Thursday :
Joey and I slept the longest, woke up the latest. Guess who woke us up ? Bloody Adrian. He was sleeping beside me and he was pinching my cheeks and nose, and tickling me. That asshole. haha. And he irritated Joey too. haha. Three of us headed to the poool for a morning swim then went for lunch. After that, I went back to the room to sleep for awhile. Woke up and went to help out with the preparations of the bbq. 2E1 people started coming and Meng Da's parents too. Bbqed. I burnt my finger due to the bloody satay. haha, Kok Ping and Weijie laughed at me. Jing's friends from Mayflower Sec came, the rest weren't really happy with it. Had a quarrel but was cool with each other after quite some time. The guys had a cake fight and they messed up the room. I was so effing pissed and I had to clear up the mess because no one was willing to. After some time, everyone starting sleeping again. haha. Except for me, Joey, Adrian, Hong Han, YuSheng, Angeline & her boyfriend. We sat outside and played cards. They were teaching me how to play daidi ( is that how u spell it ? ) but I was busy walking around with Joey. haha. I went to the public toilet to pooed because our toilet's disgusting. haha. Lionel came after that, his friend rove him here. We decided to go to the Red House. His friend drove us there, stood outside but didn't dare to go in. haha. Stupid Lionel kept scaring me saying that the lion statue outside the gate was staring at me. that bitch. haha. Drove to Old Changi Hospital after that. On the way there at Changi Village, Lionel got off the car to see those aquas ( guys having sex change. ) I was like wtf, but I started laughing. The aquas are quite pretty okay. Oh well, went to OCH. It was very very very creepy, I swear. We drove in, Joey and I didn't dare to look ot of the window. Bloody Lionel said he saw something white. The car jerked so hard because the car's wheel sort of went into a drain, Joey and me screamed. I had my sore throat already, right after the bbq. Didn't dare to go in so we headed back to Downtown east. Jing and the rest woke up, decided to go to Cheers to get some stuff but it wasn't open. So we decided to look for 7-11 but it was quite far away. Lionel and his friend went back to Changi to buy stuff and he helped me Strepsils :DDDD I went to the carpark to get my stuff, he walked me back to the chalet. Sat at the playground with Jing and Lionel, started chatting. His friend was still waiting at the car park. haha. Then he left because he had to report to the police station. hais, I was so so so so worried man. Slept for awhile then checked out. Cabbed back with Jing and Joey to amk and Jing's dad picked us up. Showered and slept till now (: I had alot of fun, really.

ahahaha, that's about it.

Monday, November 05, 2007 @ 10:05 PM

Hello sweethearts.

I just showered. Just got back from Vivocity, thought could see someone but that someone was at plaza singapura. Anyway, boring day today. I can't wait for Joey to stayover tomorrow night :D Lionel's an ass. I have a hugeeeee bruise on my knee ): it's damn pain. Oh well, I'm talking to Jingyee right now. Alright bye.

Sunday, November 04, 2007 @ 11:05 PM

Hello There.

I went to Hans for dinner. Then went to the playground to chill. That's all. I'm going missing in action. Till then.

Saturday, November 03, 2007 @ 10:51 PM

Hi Blogspot.

I tried dying my hair again and I failed. Man, I wasted my cash on the bloody hair dye when I can actually go to a salon to have my hair done. Well, went to amk hub to chill. Played a few rounds of Daytona :D Took a train down to Bugis, saw some insignificant person. Oh well, that's about it. Bye.

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