Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @ 10:54 PM

My mom got a new computer for us. Jeeez, it's so troublesome. I have so many files in my old computer and now I have to transfer everything to this computer. All my photographs, my songs and everything. There's no school tomorrow, Labour Day! I'm gonna spend my day studying. I know you guys are surprised but I'm gonna change for the better. I should stop hanging out at amk central. Really, I should. I am quite fed up with myself right now, the way I potray myself in school and all. I can't stand myself! So, I have made up my mind. I'm gonna change. I am serious. Gah, believe it or not.

I keep looking in all the places,
where you are supposed to be.
But I never seem to find you,
and you're all I long to see.

I just can't seem to understand,
what it was that changed your mind.
All this time I thought I knew you,
when really, I was blind

But know that I do not know you,
and I know I never will.
Because I cared about you,
and I care for you still.

Even though you've hurt me,
I can't seem to let you go.
But I will go on without you,
and I want to make sure you know.

It will take some time to mend,
the damage that you've done.
But broken hearts do heal,
that's where strength comes from.

For now, the tears may be falling.
And my thoughts keep circling to you.
But soon, things will get better,
if you have hope, then they always do.

I've been quite distracted lately by some things and I think I should stop poking my nose into other people's business. I hate this class that I am in right now. I really hate it. 2 more years to endure. Laura, Hang on there!

@ 2:59 PM

Finally, I'm blogging. Exam period now. I'm at Jazreel's house now. Gonna swim soon, buh bye!!!

p.s: Lionel and I broke up :D

Saturday, April 19, 2008 @ 11:32 PM

Friday, April 18, 2008 @ 7:19 PM

I miss those eyes which showed how much you loved me, how much you needed me.
What happened?

Sport's Day was awesome. We lost in soccer but guess what? We managed to perform our dance. The one we have all practiced for so long. It was kinda messy but I'm so happy that we managed to perform infront of everyone. Everyone's hard work paid off!

Run run run, I stood there watching every bit of it. I felt myself shaking in pain, as if I could just breakdown anytime. It's hard to force a smile everytime I see our old friends. Throw the words that I say, and my heart is left unspoken. I have so much to say and watching you walk away.

@ 9:22 AM

I didn't go to school today, it's Sport's Day. I'll be meeting Joey at hub right after school then we'll head to yck stadium together. I'm definitely gonna embarrass myself on stage for Peirce Workout. Okay, now I'm dreading to go for Sport's Day! Jeeez, I don't know what to do. I need help.


You carried me on your back in the zoo
You said it was forever and now it's over
It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Thursday, April 17, 2008 @ 9:33 PM

IPW sucked. It was boring! Rushed to crown center for tuition then went to Paul's house to get our project down but apparently, nothing was done. Sport's Day is tomorrow at yck stadium. Oh my goodness, our peirce workout's so screwed. Screwed, I tell you. Oh well, what can I do in such a short period of time? Nothing.

We're drifting apart again, it always happens.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 @ 9:44 PM

@ 7:52 PM

My hair's in a screwed up state that I'm dreading to go to school. My mom brought me to a salon just outside my house to get my fringe trimmed. The hairdresser was a china woman, I explained to her what I wanted and I doubt she understood. Well, she pretended like she did. When I saw myself in the mirror, to my horror, I saw this gay shit with very short fringe. Oh my, Oh my, Oh my! How am I gonna face the world! I cried for 2 dumb hours because of my hair. I feel terrible.

I had dentention today. It was more like a physical training. I didn't wear shorts inside, I swear I did not. Stupid Mr Chia! Jumping jacks, push ups, cruntches etc. Super gay for detention. Alright Bye, I'm off! Pooof.

I know you're better off without me when I'm gone.
You know you're beautiful in every way.
Even though we can't be friends,
I'll be with you till the very end.

Sunday, April 13, 2008 @ 1:38 PM

Thank you for being there for me through it all.

Tuition is on later and I really don't feel like going but I have to. ciao.

Saturday, April 12, 2008 @ 11:24 PM

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@ 7:51 PM

@ 5:46 PM

Don't look at me, I won't look at you.
I never wanted to give you up but you gave me up.

I came home this morning and I just woke up. Oh yes, watched Definitely, Maybe with Joey yesterday. The show was sweeet. You guys should watch it. I slept over at Lionel's place. I swear I had a hard time sleeping on his bed cus I miss my bed but eventually, I fell asleep. And he had to disturb my sleep in the morning. jeeez. Oh well, met Jing at amk hub then we went home together. I have tuition tomorrow. Ehmagawd, I don't wish to think about it. I didn't even do my homework. Busted.

Exams are nearing. I'm freaking out. I have to catch up. I gotta study. I gotta sink this deep down into my thick brains. Stupid stupid stupid. I don't have the friggin' discipline. I suck.

Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 11:30 PM

Yo wassup ya'll. haha. Had a match against Kuo Chuan, we lost but I'm satisfied with myself. Speech day's tomorrow and I'm not going to school. Bye!

This is the last time that I'm going to come here tonight.

Sunday, April 06, 2008 @ 10:58 PM

@ 8:11 PM

Hello Wello. Joey, Sera, Yusheng, Ian, Vincent, Nicholas, Faiz and Jazreel was over at my place to practice our Peirce Workout. We're finally done! Finally! Lionel didn't text me since last night. whatever!

@ 12:09 AM

I don't take sides and what's more, what is there for me to side? She's my bestfriend, you are my boobie. Both parties are my friends, do you have to make things so difficult for me? She's willing to be friends again, why are you holding back? Why do you dislike her so much? Do you even know why? I bet after you have read this post, you'll be mad at me. I'm not siding anyone.

Saturday, April 05, 2008 @ 10:39 PM

It's Fiona's birthday today! Happy Bithday, short girl. HAHAHAHA! I bet you're gonna kill me if you see this. Celebated her birthday at KBOX, it was awesome. There was a heavy rainfall today and I had to run in the rain with pumps. It sucks big time. I could feel water in my shoes. Anyway, I pierced my nose and I sort of regretted. Oh well, what's done is already done. Left Kbox at around 5 then met Yusheng and Rina, Jing came as well. They had dinner and I didn't cus I ran out of cash but I had a cup of soya bean. Filled my belly somehow. Peirce workout crew is coming over tomorrow morning for practice. Fortunately, I have not forgotten my steps. Dad's back from overseas. (eyes glow with happiness) Lionel's gaming. At this hour, this minute, this second, this moment. Gah, blogging's a chore.......................... Okay, I take back my words. My throat feels sore. The singing, the screaming, the laughing, the overexcess of soda, the snacks. Oh great!

Good night world.
I promise I won't look back again.

Friday, April 04, 2008 @ 10:11 PM

Happy 2nd Month, Lionel!

Thursday, April 03, 2008 @ 8:22 PM

Miss you love.
It was just yesterday when you said you would stay on forever and ever.
You see, somehow I can't forgive you for forgetting me.

Speech Day rehearsal was today. It rained heavily so I took a cabbie home. Slept for awhile and here I am blogging.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008 @ 9:17 PM

I've lost my place in your heart.
She's fought and she's fallen
She's on his knees before she's on his feet
A glittery romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see.


I was suppose to meet Lionel but he slept and forgot that we were suppose to meet. Things happened today. Don't wish to talk about it. I'm fed up.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008 @ 9:33 PM

Having a chat with Jaryl and Rina online. So long never talk to him ever since he graduated! Step Up programme today sucked. Boring. RenJing scolded me for being rude again, whatever yaaawwww. I'm such a sucker. One Crumpler bag only, made such a big fuss and quarrelled with Lionel. Bye.


After all the lies I made you believe.
Guilt kicks in.
I told myself I won't miss you but I remember, what it feels like beside you.
I miss the smell that lingers on your skin.
You're so much better than me.
I wished you never said it was over.

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